Surrender
Lying here wide awake
Thoughts encompassing my conscious wake
No sign of sleep
My mind does wander
Deep into the bleak abyss
Times gone wrong
What else could I have missed?
Failed life choices
Haunt my mind
Laughing
Taunting me
They’re deeply entwined
Feelings not evading me
Like a cold, emotionless hug they surround me
Dark as night, he appears
A projection of all my conscious fears
Rising like the mist of a cool spring dawn
The feelings he brings are not so calm
His only goal; to keep me up
Exhaustion overflowing my shallow cup
Sitting in wait
My thoughts a blur
The only escape is sleep
He makes it impossible so I must stay awake
His cold dark grasp
Growing stronger as dawn grows close
A monster in black
Disguised as an ever present conscious mind
What do we call this black cloaked figure?
Insomnia
Insomnia
To him I must surrender
-Tanya Petkau